Authenticity

In the past 3weeks I have had enough. I have enough of fb and social media and reality in general. 

I am tired of trying to be interesting and enticing. I am sick of people thinking I NEED to share only what society has been brainwashed into thinking is acceptable. 

Only the positive..the good grateful side. You are screwed up if you voice your sadness or struggles. To ignore your negative …the dark sad side. That is just fooling yourself in my eyes. I am sick of hiding. 

I lost my mask I wear when I deal with people just before Christmas. I will NOT be FAKE!

The next two post were from my personal FB page…

People need to stop telling me to “think positive”, “be positive” and “be greatful”. I’ll tell you why…

I do the most positive thing I can every freaking day….do you want to know what it is?

I GET OUT OF BED EVERYDAY!

I breathe out all the pain and sleepless hours from my body and take care of my family and teach my daughters and I take care of a home and animals. If that is not positve enough for you…nothing I do will ever be. 

FB will never be the place that will see the positive I see and accept and acknowledge daily. Those things are too tiny to ever make sense on social media. Those things I find meaningful, beautiful and positive are only known by me. Because I could never describe them to anyone in typed font. 

So excuse me when I bitch once in awhile of loneliness or frustration over an issue you don’t, nor ever will know fully.

I have had a horrible pain filled year that none of you know about….and I do the most postive thing I can…

 I GET OUT OF BED EVERYDAY! 

So take this as you wish. As personal as you wish. I will not burden anyone. 

I hope I bring positive thoughts through my photographs, vintage attire posts, gardening and upteen stupid posts of crap no one cares about. 

I am my own type of positive. 

I am me.

AND

I am not deep. Simple words work best.

I am not fake. I am me.

I am not positive.

I am not negative. 

I am true to my emotions. I feel them as they are. I will not hide them or change them for anyone. 

I am The way I should be. 

I smile more than you’ll ever know.

In fact, I rarely cry. 

I am most tired of people trying to make me change the way I feel. It is not healthy for me.

Accept me as I am….raw and real. DON’T TRY TO FIX ME! 

Why?

Because I am fixing myself the best way for me. I am not hiding behind a fake positive facade just to appease societies need for the positive. 

That is not my reality.

When I am sad, I will share it. 

When I am happy, I will share it. 

When I am open with how I am feeling, accept them exactly as I write them.  

Do not make me feel I need to explain why.

Do not tell me to think positive. 

Do not tell me you are just trying to help.


Just accept me….For Me!

These words are authentic. These words are from deep with in. They have spent years brewing underneath the pressures to “Just be happy.” “Think positive” “You just need to get over it and be grateful”.

I know this is supposed to be my “farm” blog…but to tell the truth, it is my life blog. This is what me and my family go through.

This is Life with me…a 41yr old woman who is just finding her voice. A woman who struggles with depression and other struggles I could never put into words.

This is a wanna be farm blog. A wanna be Herb and Animal farm. A dream that in all honesty may never become one….😔 A “Hobby” Farm…

Right now our life is flipped upside down. Bill’s new apprenticeship just started…it wasn’t supposed happen as fast as it did and we weren’t ready. We will adjust but it will take reorganizing every aspect of our lives. In a few weeks we learn if we even have a home or not, because greed lives in the hearts of some men and those actions destroy hopes and dreams of others.

I am scared. We are scared. 

This is reality. This is what I want our blog to be about. The real and raw side of striving for our Off-grid Herb and Animal Farm. 

I love posting the photos and sharing the good. But I want to be real with all those who follow us….

❤ Drisana 

Me…just after cleaning up a blood covered baby hen.

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Columbian Rocks

My chicks from Aug31st are no longer babies in size.

Just before Christmas we seperated the Hens from the Roosters. My 3 little ladies from my Silver Pheonix Cochin x’s were being picked on by their hatchlin roos-brothers. 

We moved them into the Big coop with my older Hens and Pretty Boy. Amazingly there was no squabbling or pecking. 

This Hens feathers are all kinky…

Her feathers came in all funky.

“Hellooo?”

The little brown lady is around 4yrs old. The Columbian Rock beside her is twice her size at 3 months. 😃

I can’t believe how friendly these “little” ladies are. They are already twice the size of all my other hens. 

The Freezer Roos are amazingly heavy already. They can be butchered by the end of February to get a fair sized bird. Yes…we raise our Roos for meat.

I am going to keep one Columbian Rock Rooster for new blood in my flock but the rest will feed us. 
❤D

Winter scenes

My photos are going backwards….

Today December 28, 2017 -18°c and snowing.

Snowing and blowing on Palling Road

December 27, 2017 -20°c and sunny.

Me snug in my new X-mas padded jacket

Flowers snug under their blanket

December 25, 2017 -27°c and windy

The wood furnace is doing it’s job

December 23, 2017 -29°c

Frost on the inside of our front door.

December 22, 2017 -21°cj

December 21, 2017 Winter Solstice -15°c

The temperature is dropping more and more…in 3 days it is supposed be -38°c or lower. These temperatures do not include windchill….🌬❄

Stay warm or cool depending on where you live. I’ll be snuggly warm in my sweaters and pressing on. 😊

☀️D

A little bit of Yule&Christmas🎄

December 21st 2017 – 

Winter Solstice to some.☀️ Yule to others.🕯🎄

Good reading

Popcicle stick Glitter Stars

Glitter stars hanging in our window

Yule was very quiet. As usual…we made glitter stars to hang in our livingroom window. I read to the girls about Winter Solstice and they did a Winter Solstice activity sheets I found on line.

December 24th-26th

Christmas Eve 🎄🎅to Boxing Day🎁

Santa comes soon!

Our Lego village

Stuffing the Turkey

Yum…dinner is served

Coffee and Carols

Movie time

Snacks

Lunch

Our Christmas celebration always includes way too much food. Haha! Christmas eve is our family dinner. Christmas day until New Years is leftovers and snacking….as long as the food holds out. 😁

Boxing day breakfast. Turkey, cranberry, salad mix croissant

We had Grandma J over for the feast and then present opening Christmas Day. Then Boxing Day we went to her house to have dinner with her and 2 of Bill’s step-siblings. 

SOOOOOO…full! I am eating spinach dip and sourdough bread bowl for breakfast…so full…so good.😜

Yule/Winter Solstice Blessings and Merry Christmas to you all. May your New Year be bright and full of good.🎆✨🎇🎉

❤Drisana and The Rest of the Peters Family! 

10 Ways to Celebrate Yule

Some good ideas for celebrating Yule. Thank you Moody Moons!❤

Moody Moons

10 Ways to Celebrate Yule

1.  Create some ice art.  With overnight temperatures below freezing in most of the US, it’s the perfect time to make some impermanent art.  Fill a rum cake pan with water, evergreens and cranberries and leave it outside to freeze.  When it’s rock solid, place a candle in the center hole, light it and leave it on your front porch to welcome guests in from the cold during your holiday get together.

2.  Make hot cocoa from scratch.  There is nothing more heartwarming than a piping hot cup of real, homemade hot chocolate.  Invite over some friends or gather your family to enjoy an evening in your living room around this delicious treat.

3.  Build a Yule fire.  Yule is most often associated with the Yule log, but you can also “season” a fire with traditional Yule herbs.  Toss in a handful of cedar, a sprig of rosemary and…

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Holidays


Happy Holidays! Season’s Greetings! Blessed Yule! Merry Christmas! Blessing for whatever Holiday you celebrate at this time of year.

Our home is starting to smell absolutely delicious. I am late on my baking spree and all the other holiday  craziness. My right Kidney decided it was the perfect time to rebel and landed me in the local Hospital Emergency in extreme pain. I was prescribed painkillers(only took 2) and antibiotics …both of which I never take until absolutely necessary. I have done my 10 days and doctor check up, Dr.Nogela says I will survive! 😉 Yay! 

Now I am working on making myself feel like a normal Human-momma type person again. 

My attempt at Human-Momma

Sour cream cookies

I got the girls to help me kick off the Holiday baking spree by making Sour Cream cookies. They are a soft-cake like cookie…all depending on how thin you roll out the dough(which is sticky).

Mmmm…first two trays baked

Miss M and S having cookie cutter fun

While they got the cookies going, I got the sausages cooking and the pastry dough made for Sausage rolls.

Now to make:

  • Sugar cookies
  • Naniamo bars
  • Lemon squares
  • Wishing cookies
  • Cheese puffs
  • Jam jams
  • Dinner buns…

I have more but this list makes me overwhelmed as is. Lol! I know it really doesn’t take that long to make them. I was trying hard to be organized this year so I could actually enjoy the process of Yule and Christmas. Haha! So much for that idea. 😄

At least I got the decorating done before the “attack of the Kidney”. I didn’t go crazy with baubles this year. 

We haven’t had any new snow since November. It has been a nice reprieve from shovelling. The temperature sure has dipped though. It got down to -20°c overnight. So far it has only warmed up to -14°c. ⛄ Which means I have a very good excuse to stay indoors and bake! 

Yule is in two days!!🕯 The return of the Sun and longer daylight is coming.☀️❤

Sorry about the abrupt stop…momma duty calls. 

Blessings ❤D

Writing 

I love 💜 snail mail…

I love 💜 sending letters.

I love 💜 receiving letters.

This year I almost didn’t send out cards for Yule/Christmas. It would have been the first time since I was 16. (But…I did. 30…and I am not done yet.)

I wrote on my personal fb page that I really wasn’t feeling that it was worth my time or saved money to send any cards out. What for? People don’t reciprocate anymore. I don’t ever require a card in return but…when I/we only get 4 cards it becomes a downer. Do I/we not cross my friends and relatives minds? I am sorry but e-cards and well wishes on fb or where ever just don’t cut it for me.

No one takes the time anymore. It isn’t that they don’t have time. They don’t make the time. Turn off the TV and pick up a pen. A simple note to some one you care about is really not that hard. You sit on transit there’s a moment. Instead of fb at your desk, take a five second moment to write a Hi! On a post it and stick it in a envelope. Be creative…

I have heard multiple excuses

  • No time
  • No cards or pretty paper
  • No money for a stamp
  • No time to stop at the Post Office. 

Bah! Who needs a pretty card or stationary? You have a pen, pencil, marker, crayon, dirt, paint…use it on a napkin, lined paper, scrap paper from the recycle bin, wrapping paper found under the couch, reciept…the limits are endless. You can whip up an envelope with easily. 

As for money for a stamp and time to stop at the post office…if you can buy a coffee every morning you can definitely afford a freaking stamp. You can buy booklets of stamps. Keep them in your purse or wallet(I do). That way they are handy and can be slapped on the corner of the envelope and thrown into a Mail Box on a corner or wherever they happen to appear. 

I have to drive 20minutes to town to buy stamps at the Post Office. Then go home write letters and then drive 5 minutes to my nearest Mail Box. OR I write a few letters and then mail them off when I’m in town once or twice a month. So, really there is no excuse.

Well……that turned into a rant that I wasn’t expecting. Hmm. I guess it has been bugging me more than I thought.

So…pick up that writing impliment and paper and surprise a friend.

💜D